Week 2 :: The UNcomfort-ability Factor

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For week 2 of my “Fundamentals of Connection” E-course, I decided to bring in special guest Ryan McCormick from the podcast “A Fireside Chat”. Ryan has always been a huge motivator for me in embracing my vulnerability, and his podcast episodes are extremely inspiring when he lets his own walls down and gives us a glimpse into some of the crazy making thoughts that race through his mind. I think that you will see in this episode that I am breaking down and, honestly, wanting to hide my head in the sand and pretend I never started this damned experiment. I even had a bit of a break down after turning off the microphone half way through our conversation.

Ryan hits the nail on the head. I’m putting too much pressure on myself. Old patterns are trying to seep back in and cozy up to that comfort-ability factor. I feel exposed. I feel like I don’t have anything steady to fall back on. This was certainly MUCH more than I had bargained for. I decided to leave all of this awkwardness in the episode. I did edit out some insanely long pauses of silence, but everything else was left in tact. It felt important to leave it all in. So I hope you will bear with me through this one. It just felt right to be uncomfortable. I didn’t want to run from my thoughts like I usually do. I let them float around. I tried not to dismiss or judge them. I just sat in that awkward, uncomfortable feeling until it finally felt… OK. These thoughts don’t define me. And it’s time I really did the work to understand them, this “darker” part of myself. So yeah, it felt brutal. But I’m up for the challenge. Are you???

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Week One Check In :: Is It Just Me?

Gw8WhY1451522293OK so I had to just get a little something out. This is a short episode just to check in and see how week one is treating you because I gotta say, I’m freaking out a little. But don’t worry, I give you all of the crazy details in this short episode. I certainly hope things are a little rough with you, too because that’s how you know all this stuff is getting stirred up! Don’t worry, though, WE GOT THIS.

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The Fundamentals of Connection :: Week One :: Hide & Seek

Gw8WhY1451522293This first week is all about EXPLORING. Becoming aware of thought patterns and recognizing shame are key fundamentals of connection. Before we  jump all in, I want to try to find some warmth in this area. It’s the part of ourselves we tend to close off because it can be too difficult to sit in the wound. We would rather just toss a band-aid over it and hope for a rapid heal time. At least, that was always my quick fix. Sitting in it and actually allowing it to seep in is scary at first, until you realize that it’s all a lie that you’ve been telling yourself over years and years of practice. But the cool thing is that you can reverse that noise! It takes some time and lots of practice, but once you get it, YOU GET IT.

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50 Shades of Filth (Part II)

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In part 2 of my conversation with Ian (McSoss), Ryan (A Fireside Chat) & Desiree, we really delve into the differences between men & women. This is probably one of my favorite converstaions in the show’s history because we are all a bit tipsy and holding NOTHING back. I get into my love of perverted conversations with men and why the bonding can suddenly fall flat when I remember I’m a female. I think this is an extremely honest and eye opening conversation. Make sure you hang around for the listener bonus episode at the end where Ian recounts his fond memories of losing his virginity for the first time. A surefire classic! Thanks so much for listening and son’t forget to subscribe, rate & review in the iTunes store!

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